Reflection

I can't believe how this year is flying by, its already MAY! and Matts birthday is coming so soon (on the 30th) and I still have no idea what to get him. eeek!

Ryley will be having his eye muscle correction surgery in a few months and i'm worried but i know everything will work out! i just hate all the comments and questions from people- sooo rude sometimes. I would never imagine asking a mother what was wrong with her childs eye but apparently oklahomans have no class...lol My lil Ryley is and has always been perfect to me. What some people may see as flaws or imperfections only make me see him more perfectly. Being a mother has changed me in so many ways. I love LOVE how it has opened my eyes and heart to things i was blinded to before. It has made me realize that life is so full of so many beautiful moments- moments that would have meant nothing to me before motherhood. I thank god everyday for my beautiful life.

I have come to see that family is sooo important. When everyone else walks away and I feel so alone I know I never am. I have taken them for granted for so long and I won't be doing that anymore. Living so far from everyone I love has made me appreciate every minute I get to spend with them and look foward to the next time I get to see them, hug them and tell them I love them.

Having Gastric Bypass has changed my life in sooo many ways. I am sooo grateful I was able to have the surgery. I am happy, healthy and lighter! I no longer have Type II Diabetes or Sleep Apnea and now when I sleep I feel rested, now when I eat I don't have to stuff myself sickly full before I actually realize I AM full. I take my time and enjoy eating and have time to feed Ryley and make sure he is getting as much food as he needs and Matt is even more aware of the things he is putting in his body. We are both better and healthier since my surgery. Its been 7 months now and I've lost 75 lbs. I feel truly amazing.